Sunday, January 25, 2015

My Undecisive Self

They feel sad, They feel lonely, Depressed, afraid....They express their soul. Every ambition, dream, lie, becomes their reality. How well do people really know me? All they see if my "happy" wanna please my family, friends, enemies' side. Do they know that once upon a time my dad held a gun to his head and was about to leave his family fatherless, his wife widowed?  Do they know I have a gay brother who is judged beyond measure, but without thinking twice shows love to those who despise him? Do they know 4 out of my 8 siblings are Alcoholic drinkers, late night party hookers? Do they know I was sexually abused as a child? No, no they don't. They will never know the true me. We only see what is on the outside. Try looking beyond that you see, past the looks, past the flaws, and in ones true self. I can not please everyone, but I can try to please myself. To accept what has happened and face reality. I can not change those around me, but I can always be the change.

4 comments:

  1. This was so honest and that's what made it one of the best posts. Keep going.

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  2. What a powerful and vulnerable beginning. You're important. That sounds weird, but idk. I think it's true.

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  3. wow. way to be honest. thats what matters, thats what makes this post matter.

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